boo yeah

we had a spontaneous dinner party with some friends and family this past saturday night. it turned out amazing! peter made his curry and garlic tofu. there was wining and dining and what turned out to be a dance party in the kitchen, listening to some soul while washing dishes. i don't know if you have ever danced and done the dishes with some friends but i highly recommend it! shannon (a friend from work is is rapidly becoming the best gal ever) and i WANTED more dishes to clean. thats how fun it was. we had a gang of about 20 come over. just like the ole redding days.

i decided that those of you who blog seem to me much closer then you actually are. and if that is confusing to you...compare it to a converstion of sorts. like all you so cal folks...haven't talked to you in months, haven't seen you in even longer, yet because of blogging...i feel i know whats going on in your life...

i jumped on the band wagon and am reading blue like jazz by don miller. IT IS AS GOOD AS EVERYONE SAYS IT IS. the first few chapters i went into it like i was going to hate it. (but then again i do that with all modern christian literature). there are such simple points that stand out with a conviction that rings genuinly passionate. i will share with you something that i have mulled over...

" my most recent faith struggle is not one of intellect. i dont really do that anymore. sooner or later you just figure our there are some guys who don't believe in God and they can prove he doesn't exisit, and some other guys who do believe in God and the can prove He does exist, and the argument stopped being about God along time ago and now it's about who is smarter, and honestly i don't care. i don't beleive i will walk away from Him, and please pray that i never do, i will walk away for social reasons, identity reasons, deep emotional reasons, the same reasons that any of us do anything...

the thing i have to work on in myself is belief...

but the trouble with deep belief is that it costs something. and there is something inside me, some selfish beast of a subtle thing that doesn't like truth at all because it carries responisbilty, and if i actually beleive these things i have to do something about them. it is so cumbersome to believe in anything. and it isn't cool...

...what i believe is NOT what i say i beleive; what i believe is what i do...

i used to say i believed it was important to tell people about Jesus, but i never did...if i don't introduce people to Jesus, then i don't believe Jesus is an important person."

these are just a few exerts from his chapter on belief. there are so many great points in this book that i would love to discuss with people.